Christmas Blues

Friday, 19 December 2008, 16:10 | Category : Parenting, Work
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Christmas is next week! My baby’s first christmas. I wish I felt more excited about it, but these past couple of weeks have really taken a toll on my spirits. My lovely greyhound, Brindy, died last week after 11 years with me. She was the best, sweetest dog ever. She was so easy to take care of and had such a gentle spirit. The only time I ever saw her aggressive was when she was protecting her buddy, Leo, my mom’s Yorkie. I miss her every time I open the back door as I would let her go outside. I cried when I saw the vacuum cleaner as it is filled with her fur.

On top of that I am really feeling the postpartum depression especially since coming back to work. I had awful nightmares last night. I woke up hyperventilating, then started crying. I am taking antidepressants and I believe that is helping me to stay in motion. All of our friends have been saying that it takes about six months to get back to normal and that is not even dealing with the body issues. I am really hoping it doesn’t take that long.

I am looking forward to a two-week long break from work to spend with my baby.  I’m hoping that next week the Christmas spirit will come back as I won’t have to worry about work.  Lately work has been so draining as it is so boring.  I am lucky to have a job though.  I know more budget cuts are coming and am hoping my job doesn’t get cut.  Just thinking about that doesn’t help with the depression either.

~M

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  1. 1Melissa

    So sorry to hear about your beloved Brindy :( Greys are so special